im stressed.  im trying not 2 b.  i am trusting God.  i know that well b ok, its just i dont wanna lose my house.  i feel guilty b/c i have been irresponsible where the mortgage was convcerned.  thetre wasnt enuf money, but that is the first bill that shd have been paid.  we shd have been more diligent.  they wldnt accept a partial payment.  and by the time i set up 2 pay biweekly we were so far behind.  they gave us amnesty once already.  if i were them iwldnt thunk that we were gonna do any better, but Gods grace is eternal.  so im praying 4 more mery & foirgiveness.  i dont want 2 have 2 move the kids.  and i dont wanna go backwards.  i dont wanna leave this home and go back 2 an apt.