so many concerns....... air wisconson called.  i want the job, but its not all i thought it wld b. will req more adjusting than i thought. we're behind on so many bills.  and the training is 5 wks unpaid. steve works nights so well need extra childcare.  i have 2 go away. good 4me...hard for them. my fam and all my freinds & fam & sitters who will fill in while im gone.  i wish he cld change his schedule and b me 4 5 wks. but he prob cant.  im wondering if its worth it.  i must just  pray & pray & pray.  i dont wanna dash my dreams, but i dont wanna turn our lives upside down either. i wish i had a friend with no kids who doesnt go out & didnt mind keeping the kids 4 me while dh is @ work.  if it is God's will He will work it out.   dinner.....coolness i made pizza, but i had no taste 4 it....can u blieve i prefered chicken breast and green beans?....and i walked during lunch.  & i walked from the subway.oh & the car needs like $800 worth of work.  im very saddened.  i mentioned we were behind.  i have bn collectin a wkly chk and we were catching up. and now this. discouraging.on the verge of greatness & being hindered. sucksbut God is still on the throne.  He will work it out 4 me.