sadness has overtaken me. right now i hate being married. do i have unrealistic expectations?  am i a bad wife? is there something wrong w/my marriage.  my friend tells me that its not about me....that i shd b more selfless. when i have done that i felt unappeciated and dissatisfied.  just not saying it.  now im still dissatisfied.  i dont know how 2 fix it.  ive bn trying 2 get on board w/god. i guess im still making the mistake of trying 2 fix or have my dh fix whats wrong w/the marriage.  what bugs me is that he doesnt think theres anything wrong.  if i wasnt havin sex  with him then im pushin him away.  he doesnt wanna have sex w/me then its what r u doin 2 make him want u.  seems like no matter what its my resp.  and what r u doin 4 him.  this just sucks.  wheres my friend?  he was my friend...we were lovers....what r we now?  i miss him.  i miss my friend.  i am crying 4 him.  i fl like we cant reach each other.  i  ate a bunch of chips.  my relationships w/men have bn flawed all of my life.  i thought that getting married wld fix that.  i find it hard 2 pray 4 him cause i am angry & hurt.  plz those who know the words of prayer plz pray 4 my marriage. right now i find it hard. i usually end of crying. im tired of talking. im sure my hus is tired of hearing me 2.  Lord plz fix it.