im so disheartened.  i went through all this training.  im looking 4ward 2 working & now no work.  a part of me enjoys having my free time. yday i cleanmed the lr.  tday maybe ill do the kitchen or the diningroom.   i was excited about the working out that wld go with thejob.   i made some money yday by going 2 the dr.  i was in a study 4 spermicide.  i was so embarassed b/c ive only had sex 4x since october.  can u blieve it?  anyway it was my final  visit  in a6month  study.  i  made  $150.  so  that  was gd.  im  not  working  again  tday.  im  starting 2  wonder  if  it  wld  b better  2  get a lower  paying  more  predictable  job.  at  least  id  know  that  i  was  going  2  wrk  each  day.  or  shd i pray 2 get work w/ this job.  lord pls make wrk 4 me at this station or transfer me toa station where there is wrk and thank u 4 sustaining us in the meantime...amen.im going 2 a book club tnight.....and i have not read the entire book....maybe ill spend tday reading it.