stayed home from church. fl overwhelmed with work kids and church wrk. thinking of quitting choir.  im not giving my best & havent bn 4 some time.  ive been just beat.  im gonna b workin outside.  i dont mind, but i fl lk im then supposed 2 do dinner,and interact w/kids and hus.  and go  2 meetings & rehearsals....i want 2 serve God, but i want an orderly life w/some time 4 me, 4 fun, 4 dating, some time when im not working.....cleaning cooking raisng children doing laundry, in a meeting.....etc. im so tired & more is expected of me.  ive gotta take something off my plate.  i have no energy 2 do anything leisurely. i wanted 2 go 2 a service fri nite, but was so tired.  this sucks.  ill pray & stand still until im clear on what God wants me 2 do.  i know what God doesnt want me 2 do quit praising him.  is there another gift that i can use 4 the lord that wld not stress me so?  i guess ill pray about that.  ive bn sick more b/c ive been doing so much more.  i had sour  stomach & diareaha.  i have bn eating badly all wk.