anxiety.  the Bible says be anxious 4 nothing, but in everything by prayer & supplication.  with thanksgiving let ur requests b made unto God.  im irritated.  im jealous & im anticipating drama.  my daugter's bio dad called tday.  after  not calling 4 2 or more yrs.  his mother calls reg, but he hasnt.  so what tday he all of a sudden remembered he has a daughter?  so he calls like he spoke 2 me yday...claiming that hes gonna send isis' ins card.  and promising her that hes gonna come pick her up.  i have 2 act like its all good 4 her sake and mine. its easier.  why  a  ?  when  there s not  likely 2 b an anseerr & it really doesnt matter.  why hes an absentee dad doesnt change anything 4 us.  i do wonder.  i wonder how its effecting her. i just pray that since she has my hus that it wont hve any lasting negative effects. i dont care if she goes down south or not but now that ill b wrking its more important that they do what they say theyre gonna do.  last summer i had her scheduled 4 the whole summer b/c come march i hadnt heard anything from her grandmother. i changed her plans &lost money so that she cld visit and no one wld make the trip 2 pick her up.  so she was in the house 4 a wk b/c i cancelled camp and lost my deposit.  4 nothing.  but somehow this summers gonna b dif.  every summers bn a hassle if we didnt drive her down.  she came back late b/c no one cld make the time....all that shd b taken care of b4 she comes.  i have 3 children now & i dont have the time. isis is supposed 2  go 2 fl w/my parents this  summer and i want her 2 go 2 performing arts camp.  im concerned that they wont come through again.  she hasnt been down the last 2 summers.  on another topic i have a lot of goals....this isa good way 2 kp track of them & my progress.