i was thinking of going 2 the party tnite.  i was gonna get a sitter & take a gurlfriend 2 insure id have a good time.  so no sooner do i call & leave a mess on my gurls phone does someone from church call 2 ask me 2 watch some kids so that others can go 2 the party. so i sd yes. god apparently had other plans 4 me.  my pastor wants all the staff 2 come 2 the party and many of them have children.  a part of me wanted 2 b selfish. i nd a break. i nd 2 b away from my kids 4 a night, but the holy spirit softened my heart.  i can go out another day and thanx 2 steve even though he works funky hours....on occassion i can get out.  and i hve reliable sitters. everyone does not have that.  im blessed. i do.  they sd itd only b about 2 hrs....thats 2 movies at most.  take some toys and craft stuff.  it shd b fine.