i just wanna b left alone.  the kids r around. right prac under me.  all these toys & stuff & they still  act like they're bored. the 2 youngest were sliding down the stairs and the oldest just walking  around like she has nothing 2 do.  im in the kitchen.  im listening 2 the radio.  and typing.  my period is so heavy i have  2  where  serenity  pullups.  im  trying  2  protect  my  clothes  &  sheets.  i  rem  my  mom  used  2  b   just  as  heavy.  she  used  2  put  newspaper  on  her  bed  at  nite.  its  a  bit  embarrassing.   no  one  sees  them  but  my  kids  &  h.  but  personnally  it  just  doesnt  feel  very  feminine.   but  it  does  protect  my  clothes  &  sheets.   i  feel  so  drained.   i  thnk  im  gonna  run  out  while  the  fam  eats  dinner.  i  look  a  fright.   prob  more  2  me.   iill have to go to staples 2morrow. s bought me some photo cards, but it was not what i wanted.  when he left he didnt try 2 kiss me....i was gonna tell him not 2 kiss me 2 hurt himi dont wanna b cordial, i want 2 b loversso i  feel like im settlingwhat kind of person am i if i settle?im cryingim so used 2sharing my emotions fully im tryin 2 hold it ini dont want my children 2 rem a basket casei dont want them 2 have parents that r cold 2 each other eithermy oldest .....