im stressed.  not sure why.  i think i should go 2 bed.  i have 3 jobs that r due...i did the jobs but i need 2 do the reports.  1 is far more complex than i thought.  i thought the report was simple,but it was not.  and that stressed 4 some reason.  i just dont feel like doing it tday.  ill do the reports tmorrow.  ive been watching this show on discovery times on female serial killers.  some of these stories r just unbelievable.  im cold.  im depressed.  ive been eating a lot and high cal stuff.  my weight is creeping up not so slowly.  ive tried getting back on track....and im not doing well.  my clothes r tight.  and my back hurts....im over 200 lbs againmy face is filling out....im sad....my appetite has been real weird and i havent felt much like cooking so we eat out more than usual.  i took the post office test and i put in an appl for a temp carrier.  at least ill get some exercise.