i have gained back 21 lbs over the last few months. im trying to figure why? well i know te why...i havent been exercising and ive been overeating,,,and eating a lot of unhealthy foods. the why that i dont know about,,is why am i overeating, not exercising and why eating unhealthy? what has chnaged? im not sure, but i do know that i dont like it. my clothes dont fit right. the new clothes i recently bought dont fit at all. im tired a lot. im tired right now. i dont feel like ive been getting enuf sleep. i go to bed, but i toss and turn some and the baby's been waking up. if i dont have to work i can sleep til lunch...symptoms sound like depression, but i cant figure why i'd be depressed. things r ok. i am stressed. im stressed with no having any money...i dont wanna b "just" a stay at home mom. i want a job, but i dont wanna have my kids be in day care all day...i dont want to be unavailable to them. ive been having trouble finding jobs that fit into what i want. im stressed that ill b doing this for a long time.....i signed up for a signing class and i havent been concentrating on it...i guess i thought it wld be easier...not so hard and now a great deal of my motivation has dwindled. im a punk i know. i had a mystery shop with a personal trainer....i am still sore and it was thursday.
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I\'m really sorry you are having a rough go of it. I can kinda relate. It is really hard right now with Littles. I should know. You probably are not getting the right amount of nutrients, like green leafy vegs that have a lot of B vitamin which help with energy. It is just a matter of gettin\' to grips and saying \'yes I can\' and just do it. I can also relate about the \'not having any money too\' and that can be just as stressful. But something will open up for you. I know that sounds trite and trivial. I am havin\' a hard time finding just a filler job but I know no matter what, God will lead me to the job that works out for me. I have to believe that other wise I will get depressed.
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Come on girl you have to shake that off. You say that you don\'t know what the problem is you do know. You say that you toss and turn during the night and at that time what is going through your mind? Whatever is on your mind at that time is part of the problem, trust me I know. I\'ve been going through the same thing for the last couple of months and I sometimes like horrible dark eyes and all. But I don\'t let it get to me that much the only thing that really bothers me is my weight you say the you\'ve gained well I\'ve lost and it\'s not a good look for me at all. I mean some may want to wear a size three but I never was one of those people I like to be thick. Thick thighs and some junk in my trunk and I\'m good. I was wearing a 11 and now I\'m like and 8 not happy. I brought a dress last week ususally must buy a large, how about the medium was a little big and I could\'ve gotten the small if they had it. So sista girl I feel your pain. But you have to start making sense and right now you\'re not making any to me. You don\'t want to be a stay at home mom but you don\'t want the kids in daycare. What do you think daycare is for? You\'re stressed about not having any money. What do you think you need to do about that get a job. In life there are choices and sometimes we have to choose when we don\'t want too. You have to have money that will make you feel better. You and the kids probably need a little family outing to reveal some of the stress because believe me if you\'re going through it they are as well. So you have some choices to make and make them do think about long and hard just do what you have to do so you can feel better. Keep your head up sista I\'m here.