im feelin kinda down tday.  im anxious about this job.  should i b prayin for it....is it the best thing for me; 4 my fam?  my choir isnt showing up to rehearsal.  i wanna quit myself....its sometimes a real challenge to go to rehearsal and sundays theres no one to watch my kids.....this morning was very easy....a friend came to watch the kids and she lent me her car to go to rehearsal.  i was on time and i came home on time.  prob is im concerned about putting out the money for babysitting each wk.  and im gonna pay a gain tnight b/c i wanna go out w/ my husband.  ive done seacret sho jobs, but some of thes co r very slow 2 pay.  im frustrated...tday is far easier than it cld b......the lord is certainly making my way easy tday...i must need it.  im tired..havent been sleeping restfully.  i must b worried....im tryin not to, but i am.....not being a good steward with money...i sometimes spend and dont keep track..and it ends up costing more money through overdraft fees.  my son sure has a beautiful smile.....my daughters do too....i keep a headache lately.....i have not been eating well...ive gaioned back 10 lbs....ive fallen back into old habits.....i need to get back to the habits that had me healthier and feeling better....