im a little depressed.  just found out that the ins co of other driver says they r not paying.  car is in lot racking up charges just by being there.  im more upset b/c my hus found out sat and sd nothing.  how am i supposed to be a helpmeet if he wont let me.  i feel like hes keeping on the fringe of whats going on and yet what happens affects me.  stuff is just piling up.  the car.  the gas bill is rerally high.  i made a pay arangement but cldnt keep it so now they're chrging the whole bill.  over 2 grand.  usually i can correct it by paying the arrangment.  im gonna call tmorrow...they have high volume of calls.  i signed up to be part of a study.  itll pay 480 after 6 mnths.  ill only have to go in 5 x.  god is trying to get our attn.  well i guess hes got it.  only thing right now i am processing.  i am depressed.  im eating and eating.  im concerned b/c my relationship with my hus seems to be stagant.  i fel like i need to make a lot of money quickly.  im postimg on ebay on amazon.  im going to deliver papers...im thinking of whatever.  i cant kill myslef i know, but im tempted...at least steve cld use the ins money.....haha...plz no one b concerned im not serious im just frustrated.  i also know a place where i can give my bld for $20...seems somehow low...like something that a homeless person wld do...i dont wanna become homeless.  $20.00 is $20.00.  my gurl did lent me $100 for isis camp amd my dad is gonna give me the rest.  oh and we r way behin on our mortgage.  i cant figure where the money is going.  we're both makin it, but it just keeps slipping through our fingers.  all those who know the words of prayer...plz pray 4 us.