i feel so guilty. i got a cut off notice for the elec. i dont know why i waited so long to call...i thought that i might have the money to pay the bill. i thought that they wld ask me to pay acertain amt and i ddint want to call until i knew how much money id have on hand. anyway they didnt ask 4 any money, but i waited til the day of the notice and they canbt get in touch with the tech that r on the street and now i cld still get dis even thoguh i made an agreement. and then it cld take 3 days for them to turn it back on or they may ask 4 more money. i feel so guilty..shd i wait here hoping that if i talk to the tech that they will call 2 c that i shdnt b dis?...they prob wont even talk to me...b/c im sure they get that all the time...i dont want the kids 2 have to b here with no elec...its been cut off b/4 and its summer and tday its not hot, but tomorrow it may b. and i feel resp. i feel like its all my fault...the lord will still take care of it i know. i just feel guilty an like wondering will he deliver me yet again wen its my own doing? im not sure. of course what good will come from me staying home all day? maybe the lord will bless by me talking to the tech and he or shes heart will be softened and maybe they will call 2 chk...or maybe the tech wont come at all. i jjust dont know. i know i cany fix it, but i want to be available 4 god to use me as he fixes it. but does god need my help? nvr. im scared. the song says if ur gonna worry dont pray...if ur gonna pray dont worry...im having trouble not worrying about a lot of stuff. im so sorry for doubting u lord.
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I have had this happen to me twice before. Only I got ticked off at DH because he either \'forgot\' about it or he did something stupid like buy a laptop with the bill money. It is annoying, I felt stupid in front of the kids and I was angry to boot. I would call the tech and make out some kind of payment arrangement.
TheLord is full of mercy. It\'s not a \'lets slap up Naimalove upside the head\' moment, it is part of the situation. Cause and effect. But I also have learned that during these times that the Lord does provide if you ask. Somewhere it says \'ye have not because ye asketh not\' and then of course the waiting on the Lord bit too, (they renew their strength) and i think strength doesn\'t mean you will be able to life 50 pound weights but strength in the sense of patience, endurance, trust, Fatith, and Hope. Having these shows the Lord that you are putting your total care in Him.
The Lord knows that our flesh is very weak, which is why he tells us that those who just wait, (joyfully) will have their strength renewed and then He can lift us up to wondeful heights.
Pray. And even say \'take away my fears Lord\' He knows and understands. God bless you dear!!
LittleLion