didnt go to the job interview b/c i cant find my keys.  been looking all day; turned the house upside down. still cant find them...hubby thinks they may b locked in the car.  there were a bunch of kids over my house sat and im afraid one of them may have taken them by mistake.  or my gurl may have taken them.  but she wld have found them by now right?  my eating is off.  im stressed about money about what way i shd go....about whatever....and a bro from church died.....i cant blieve it..i havent really thought about it all day b/c of my own drama, but he is dead...damn.  his fam does not have their father.  makes my drama just seem like bullshit.  my drama is bullshit!!!!!.  im not dead.  my hus is not dead...none of my kids r dead...if the worst thing that happens is im behind on my bills and/or our ut get cut off...we still have a place to live...we still alive...we still have each other...we have fam that will take us in if it got that bad althoguh i do not expect that god wld allow it to....we're still alive.  we still have breath...stop bitchin naima...stop complainin.....i do that  alot...complain....i complain...no wonder my children complain so much and r nvr satisfied...i teach them that.....i need to pray for contentment and peace.  lord pls grant me the ability to c my blessing all the time and be satsfied with them while still being open for more.  plz allow contentment to enter my spirit...i ma so tired of complaining...i want to be able to not have to put across my pnt...i want 2 just be happy with god understanding me.  ive been strivin for this most of my life...i may b better, but im not there.