i hate my hus. i just feel the need 2 "say" that. but i wont say it 2 him b/c i ont actually mean it. maybe i actually hate my current situation. i wanna just box him out and live in this house like strangers. get a job and let him worry about paying the bills. ill just take care of the kids and thats it. but i know that god doesnt want hus and wives at odds and so he wont bless me doing that, but i am angry and i want to. just take a job and not tell him anything. put the kids in daycare and maybe have my own room. i fel like my power is gone. i dont like the person i am right now. i dont like having 2 depend on him 4 money...the ebay is helping, but not much and not quickly enuf.
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There are days when I am at the end of my tether with my husband but then I have to make a list of positive things about my dh and by the end of that I am feeling a lot better about him and my situation or the day or whatever.
Your power really isn\'t gone. You have more power than you realize. THe hand that rocks the cradle really is the one that rocks the world. You have probably read my kavetching journals about ds but in the very end, he is scared of me. When he was in danger of flunking psychology he was scared stiff to tell me because he knew I would explode all over the place. He knows if I am totally \'ticked off\' that he better not dare mess with me that day. He hung around for dinner today rather than run off with his buddies because he knows how fractious I get when he misses dinner and then spends 10.00 on junk food. So, dear sista, you got more power than you realize!!! Because the if Mama ain\'t happy NO ONE IS HAPPY!!
It takes time for ebay...some weeks are really slow, some times it just is rockin\'.
LittleLion