i am so frustrated.  seems 2 b a recurring theme.  what is wrong with me?!!!!!!  & tday i felt attacked.  my gurl was tellin me that the lord is not telling me to sit on my ass and wait...like im unemployed or something.  i take care of 2 children all day and 3 all night.  that is not sitting on my ass.  i sell things on ebay.  i didnt say anything...i didnt feel like defending myself.  i told her i had to go.  people can say what they want, but the lord told me that i cld quit my job and i dont bleve that he told me that so that i cld wait a few yrs and go back to a place just like it.  i know that.  what good is bringing in more revenue just to create a new bill?  she says that the lord will make a way...well if hell make a way in that case then he will make a way in this.  i know that im just so effing tired...i feel sick lately...im eating wrong things ive gaimned bk weight.  my hus and i r like up and down.  im tired a lot and cant seem to get rest...i hate 2 admit i cld b depressed.  i wanted 2 thnk it might b something physical, but it sure snds like depression.  so what do i do?...pray?