got a call from eastern u tday regarding my bill...i stillowe money from a prev sem. i have to pay that money b4 i can start back. i owe like $1500. the guy fromcoll was like a plan of 379/mnth wld get it done b4 sept.....i can not afford that right now...not with how we're behind on bills and steve is making less money. i sold something on amazon. i will soon sell something on ebay. i am trusting god that hes gonna make a way. if i can sell enuf on ebay and half.com and amazon and whatever else then maybe i can pay for school...i may b able to geta loan...id rather not. i have to remind myself that there is no rush...life is a journey and not a destination. it doesnt matter when i start back 2 school as long as its the right time. it isin gods time notmine. i want it to happen right now. i feel guilty fornot having graduated from hu backin 1996, 97. i feel guilty for having squandered my opp to have a free educationand a life where i cld have been the focus 100%. now there r so many resp besides school. iwant to b a college grad!!!!!!!! but it is a new day. and we keep repeating the same experience until we get it right. i have another opp...praise the lord...that god will not give upon meand i will not give up on myself. i have gifts to give to god...to show himto the world!!!!!....i am viableand special. and rushingto get it done is not gonna take away what happened...so why rush? whether i can go backto eastern in the fall or not, i will b at ccp taking my asl classes. amen