i dont feel appreciated by my fam. thats what ive been telling my husband for some time. since i got no acknowledgement from my children or husband for mother's day my feelings r truly hurt. and when steve got home from the library (he was working on his final) we didnt do anything...well no sex. i complained; still confused as to why he cldnt just get me a card. i asked 4 so little and he still cldnt give it to me. i told him how he hurt me and asked for some explanation. he sd he forgot. i reminded him numerous times b4 mother's day and on mother's day and still nothing. i just dont get it. he says hes not anygry with me and he does feel that i deserve an acknowledgement, but that he just isnt good at gifts he says...that hed b happy if id just buy myself something and tell him its from him. or tell me what i want...i did!...i told him i wanted a card...& he just wld not get it...i thnk its passive agressive. that hes not sat with something im doing & this is his way of voicing it. i feel i do enuf. im starting to want to be rebellious. i filled out a profile on chemistry.com...and ive done that b4...i filled one out on harmony...but it was more as a joke...steve was sitting right there with me...we wanted 2 c the "losers" that wld wanna chat with me....this time i was curious to c if id be desirable 2 anyone. i want 2 chat w/ someone who thinks im wonderful and is willing to show me the way i want. i know my hus thnks im attractive and i know he loves me...i just dont feel special....i feel taken 4 granted. i here so much more whats not done then thank u for what is. i asked steve if hed mind me having an emotional affair...of course he wld....i feel like if ur not gonna give me any attn; then maybe i can help u out and find someone who will.....i know its wrong. i cant believe it, but i am tempted. i feel neglected.....im thinking of getting a job to feel valued. so far i havent seen any positions that look interesting and pay a decent wage. pray 4 me.