i keep writing journals and then they erase. i dont know why. i talked to my hubby tday about our finances. he sd that he wld sit down with me and configure a budget. he sd he wld actually give some input. i am very thrilled...im tired of doing it by myself. my comp is still down...i am sad. my head hurts a lot...im so tired. i am stressed and i am turning to food...very haphazardly. i am working out every day this week to work off what i have eaten. my workout tday was good and i dont feel so beat up. the working out is getting easier. i feel isolated. im not sure what i want to do...im not sure what the lord wants me to do...perhaps this is what he wants me to do...and this is not what i want to do...perhaps right now my fam is my p[rimary concern and anything that i wish to do for me must centyer around them. i nvr liked being last, but its nec right now...maybe thats what the lord is trying to show me. the bible does say that the first will b last and the last will be first...my hubby is out with his co workers...i have no coworkers. i need a support group. i go to the y but i feel more in sync with the babysitters there than the stay at home moms who work out there. i still feel like a "working mom" b/c we're not rich. they may not b either, but i guess thats my perception. there is a stay at home mom group in my area i tried to join on yahoo and they wld not accept membership b/c they sd i did not live in the area...they apparently had nvr heard of my neighborhood and therefore assumed that i was not in their area...totally turned me off...who wants to fight to get into a grp that doesnt want them? maybe i shd start my own. i guess i cld start on yahoo and c if anyone joins...maybe ill do that...keep me in prayer yall.