i just finished watchin oprah. it was about people who had a call to do some certain thing.....it was helping people trmemdously....i mhave for most of my life wanted to be special...thought that there was something that i was going to do that was special and needed. have no idea what that thing is...i have been praying for a biz that will bring mw money and allow me to be with my kids and allow flex and change etc. i have a job too long that does not involve chnage gets boring to me and i start to really hate it...and doing something for so many hours and hating it affects my life negatively. anyway perhaps i need to be praying for a ministry....i was reading purpose driven life...why am i here? and i still havent come up with or i havent been listening....what can i do that no one else can? what does god want me to do? i ve been asking that question, but i do not know the answer. i started re-reading that book to get closer to an answer...as usual i got distracted and stopped reading the book everyday and then more days passed bet readings. i must fervently seek him...that was my intent..that is what i started out doing, but i did not continue. i have a lent devotional too, but have not read all 40 entries. i have been in closer contact with the lord over this season, but i still either dont have an answer or am not listening to the answer so not close enuf. i know that the only reason i was put here is not to raise my own kids, but what else? plz all those who know the words of prayer, pray that i will keep seeking god, that i will not allow anything or anyone (MYSELF) to distract me and that i will listen for the answer...i believe that the lord has given me an answer, but i either am not accepting it, or just not listening....i pray that i will hear clearly...b/c i know his voice...i am one of his sheep and he is my shepherd. lord i know u r speaking to me, plz help me to open my ears so that i can hear u....plz help me get quiet long enuf 2 hear u...amen