i lost another 3 lbs...funny the closer i get to my goal the scarier i get. ive been eating my way to unhappiness for so long the idea that my relationship with food and my attitude about food is changing is just hard to believe...a part of me is so afraid that im gonna mess up; that im gonna gain it all back....i still have 50 more lbs to lose b4 im at the high end of the weight range according to weight watchers. im not sure if i want to be that small, but its supposed to be the acceptable bmi. heavier than 148 is considered overweight...well we shall c.