i dont know what to say....i feel better now, but i was so frustrated earlier. my hubby is a preacher and hes in school, and he works....i just feel like im with the kids so much...this wk was revival and im on the choir and i was expected to go every night, and steve was on the bandstand....and they're like my resp. tnight he was worship leader so i felt all alone with them and again i did not hear the sermon at all. the baby was fussy and crying and zora wld not sit still. i felt like a prisoner. i started thinking why did i have so many children; why wont this kid stop crying....god plz make him stop crying. by the end of the service i was almost in tears. just overwhelmed at.....my life and my lack of control of it. i just grabbed the kids and left...steve had to go to pastors house 4 dinner...id like to b there too, but it wld be no enjoyment if i take the kids...and i cant afford a sitter...i need one tmorrow to go to choir rehearsal.....