night b4 last some officers of the court came 2 serve a warrant at 3 am. it was really scarry. i have nvr had any dealing with police and i really didnt know what i was expected 2 do; they r not police officers so they didnt have on uniforms and they didnt have a police cruiser so we werent even sure if we shd let them in and what if they'd bussed down the door....but god....but god was there and was in control. they waited until the police that we called arrived and i had my mom on the phone for support too....they serched the house checked my husbands id...saw that we r no relation to the dude they were looking for and they left...weve only lived in our home since november...so i imagine its either an old address or he lied. anyway all there what ifs run through my mind...and i was kinda on the verge of tears all day and i was tired after having my sleep disturbed. but i did something dif than prev. usually when something really upsets me i shut down....and like stay as depressed as i can and still take care of the kids.....but i went to the gym anyway and the workout felt good...and i talked to the lord cause i didnt have time to talk to anyone else...i went to the dentist....and then i cooked and headed to church. i wanted to leave early cause the kids were real figetty, but i couldnt find my keys so i had to stay til the end...i guess thats where god wanted me to be...anyway....steve just seem to take it all in stride....its funny im the optimist, but i tend to think of worst case senarios all the time...i guess i watch too much law and order...steve just is like nothings gonna happen and thats it. we compliment each other well. so we made love last night anf that soothed me much. i luv him and wld nvr want to lose him....what god put together let no man put asunder...amen