im so tired. i havent been sleeping so wella dn cant figure out why. this week is revival and i expect to b pretty exhausted. steve will b at church every night and so will i...i hate having to take the kids...im the most concerned about isis, i dont want her to miss sleep and b irritable in school. sometimes i hate being the main director of the choir...i love doing it cause its fun, but i sometimes hate the responsibility. i therefore have to b at the revival every night. and thurs steve will b out of town for work. i will miss him. so im looking forward to the services, but not at the same time. im looking for a job that ill enjoy. isis is gonna b in camp and prob zora too, so id only have to pay for steve to go to day care and the other two would b in camp. i want to go back to school, but im not focused enuf. i sent an appl to volunteer with women organized against rape. its something that ive wanted to do for a long time. im not attentive enuf to my oldest. im so tired sometimes. she doesnt understand that. i dont even understand it. in the morning its so hard for me to get up. i am not a morning person. whatever..im just venting...god is good and life is very good...god is excellent. i am abundantly blessed. steve is at school right now....hes reading so ill b going to sleep alone tnight...this is his reading week so he doesnt have class, but hell be busy with the revival. so that kinda leaves me with kids. like all the time. its tiresome.