day 10 the heart of worship (purpose driven life)
notes
the heart of worship is surrender. there r three barriers that block out total surrender to god; fear, prde, and confusion. we dont realize how much god loves us, we want to control our own lives, and we misunderstand the meaning of surrender. offering urself to god is what worship is about. trust is an essential element to surrender. surrender is best demonstrated in obedience and trust. surrender is not the best way to live, it is the only way to live...nothing else works.
summary
the heart of worship is surrender
surrender ur whole being to him to be used for righteous purposes. romans 6:13
what area of my life am i holding back from god?
my profession. i didnt plan to be a homemaker, a stay at home mom. i want to be more....i chose it, i thought it was the right thing to do for isis when she started kindergarten. now i have 3 children and i sometimes feel like a prisoner and a maid. i feel like a servant to my husband. i feel less important b/c im always attached to the children. i rarely go anywhere w/o them. i feel like my identity is dependent upon them...im a wife and mother.....that im nothing else. i went to hs to go to college and i still have no degree....my husband is a preacher now and he has resp at church that take him away a lot and now hes in seminary and hes just told me that hes taking 3 courses instead of two.....so hes has this whole life that has nothing to do with me or the children and i just have these children and this house...i feel like nothing. and why would god want me to feel that way? but if i went back to work then wed have to pay childcare plus....how would i b able to do all that i need to do so that he can do what he needs to do. it would b that much harder for me. i want to be special!!!!!!!! mom is not special...mom just cleans up and makes us clean up and makes dinner that i dont want eat.....shes supposed to do that....when ur a wife and mother no one appreciates anything u do b/c ur supposed to do that. nothing u do is great or wonderful b/c ur supposed to do it. im afraid that ill nvr grad from college...and ill just b a wife and mother with no identity of my own. is this what god wants me to do? and even if i hate it i shd do it? i dont hate it....i like the flex of my day...i like being with the kids some of the time. and although im not a big lover of cleaning i am very pleased by the end result. i must surrender this to god. i just dont know how....i dont know how to not feel like less than. how do i not feel lonely when much of my nights are spent alone w/o my husband as hes in ministry or in school and then he tells me that he needs more time to himself or to study. i get time alone b/c hes not here after the kids go to bed but i want that time with him....how do i not feel like a single parent when hes gone so much...why did the lord tell me to marry a man whose gonna be gone so much....god comes first and i come 2nd, sometimes i dont even feel like im on the list...why did god take me a person who already has low self esteem and put me in a situation to feel unimportant?
notes
the heart of worship is surrender. there r three barriers that block out total surrender to god; fear, prde, and confusion. we dont realize how much god loves us, we want to control our own lives, and we misunderstand the meaning of surrender. offering urself to god is what worship is about. trust is an essential element to surrender. surrender is best demonstrated in obedience and trust. surrender is not the best way to live, it is the only way to live...nothing else works.
summary
the heart of worship is surrender
surrender ur whole being to him to be used for righteous purposes. romans 6:13
what area of my life am i holding back from god?
my profession. i didnt plan to be a homemaker, a stay at home mom. i want to be more....i chose it, i thought it was the right thing to do for isis when she started kindergarten. now i have 3 children and i sometimes feel like a prisoner and a maid. i feel like a servant to my husband. i feel less important b/c im always attached to the children. i rarely go anywhere w/o them. i feel like my identity is dependent upon them...im a wife and mother.....that im nothing else. i went to hs to go to college and i still have no degree....my husband is a preacher now and he has resp at church that take him away a lot and now hes in seminary and hes just told me that hes taking 3 courses instead of two.....so hes has this whole life that has nothing to do with me or the children and i just have these children and this house...i feel like nothing. and why would god want me to feel that way? but if i went back to work then wed have to pay childcare plus....how would i b able to do all that i need to do so that he can do what he needs to do. it would b that much harder for me. i want to be special!!!!!!!! mom is not special...mom just cleans up and makes us clean up and makes dinner that i dont want eat.....shes supposed to do that....when ur a wife and mother no one appreciates anything u do b/c ur supposed to do that. nothing u do is great or wonderful b/c ur supposed to do it. im afraid that ill nvr grad from college...and ill just b a wife and mother with no identity of my own. is this what god wants me to do? and even if i hate it i shd do it? i dont hate it....i like the flex of my day...i like being with the kids some of the time. and although im not a big lover of cleaning i am very pleased by the end result. i must surrender this to god. i just dont know how....i dont know how to not feel like less than. how do i not feel lonely when much of my nights are spent alone w/o my husband as hes in ministry or in school and then he tells me that he needs more time to himself or to study. i get time alone b/c hes not here after the kids go to bed but i want that time with him....how do i not feel like a single parent when hes gone so much...why did the lord tell me to marry a man whose gonna be gone so much....god comes first and i come 2nd, sometimes i dont even feel like im on the list...why did god take me a person who already has low self esteem and put me in a situation to feel unimportant?
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