i didnt realize itd been so long since i wrote. i have 2 other blogs that i kp as well...i must have been writing in them. anyway hubby and i went to counselling finally with our pastor. we will meet again in a month. steve has to talk with his fam tell them to give us some space and stop dropping by unannounced. i will keep the house better. we will discuss what roles we plan to play. we will being to pray together and get our spiritual lives in order. my pastor thinks that if the issues with the mil is taken care of that the rest will b addressed as well. the stress from the mil issue has spilled over into the other stuff. steve will stop sleeping on the sofa. and he will communicate more. he has been doing these things so far...so praises be!

mil and sil dropped by this morn without warning. mil sd she wanted to help me unpack some things...they ended up ironing anf folding and puting away the children's clothes. all fine, but unnessesary. and them being here w/o calling is intrusive. they think this is just steve's home...it is not...its mine too.

and i dont want them here...it will get done when i get to it...i dont want someone else trying to run my home...i run my home.

his mother cant seem to get that.
hes gonna have to tell her..and shes gonna back off...she will and maybe shell finally c that her son is a man..and not a child anymore.

im re-reading purpose driven life b/c i have forgotten or nvr knew or perhaps it has changed my purpose. i dont know why im here. i dont know why god made me...im keeping a purpose driven life 40 day journal too...chk it out if u want. blog.myspace.com/iszoreve and i have a slim down blog at 360.yahoo.com/naimalove