im so unhappy...how can i b happy?...if i told that to a christian they would tell me that real joy commes from god. i know that or i guess i believe that it just sounds like such a cliche. if i was right with god then id have joy. i know its right...how do i get right with god? i feel like getting right with god is like working out...i need motivation. and what if i do get right with god...does the sadness just go away? does it not go away, but just get easier to deal with? good thing about journalling is that it helps u keep things is perspective...they tell the truth...i dont always feel this way even though tday it feels like ive nvr been any dif...my journals show that i have been happy...just not tday...so maybe i shouldnt b so upset...i just hate disappointing people...when i dont go to church im told that the choir just isnt the same...why cant they b the same without me? its funny my pastor sd in a meeting just yesterday that someone else needs to step up to direct well b/c i cant always b there. i have 3 small children. funny then one of the deacons tday told me that i shd be there all the time or at least like 98% of the time. otherwise im inconsitant. my pastor sd its a lot of pressure to put on a person. i do feel pressure. everytime i cant get a sitter, i feel so bad. this is so much more resp. when i was a child i was on a choir, but that meant singing once or twice a month...now its every sunday. i enjoy the job immensely, but getting the kids together on sunday morning just seems somehow harder than other days...maybe b/c of the whole wk.
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They should appoint an assistant choir director for when you cant make it they shouldnt make you feel bad when you cant come you have small children they should understand. Keep your head up girl. It will all work out.
Now you must get those kids to church. They need that guidance and strength. They must know at a young age the Powere of the Lord. You\'re going to have to come up with some type of system. Also you haven\'t been feeling 100% and what better place for you to feel better then the house of the Lord.
Im sorry that ur going thru such a diff x. When things arent going well its hard 2 remebr if they ever were. It seems as if things will never b good again. I pray that ur husband will bgin trying again. It isnt right 2 leave all of the responsibility on u.
you sound like a strong woman, don\'t let bad days make you doubt yourself. you are right, look over your journals, and see that you have good days, too. I think fatbutsexy is right, an assistant choir director sounds like a great solution. Take it as a huge compliment that your choir isn\'t the same without you, but you can\'t always be there. So until your kids are old enough to sing with you in that choir, the church is going to have to help YOU. And I don\'t know that you haven\'t gotten it right with god already, you sound like you\'re trying, and that\'s what he\'s looking for...