im so tired; i was up with the baby til 4am. i ran a phone line to a jack and it was more dif than i thought it would b....i havent done it insome time; gave me a real sense of accomplishment. and i put together a desk for the computer...i was finallt able to take the printer, modem and router out of the kitchen. lil steve has been particularly needy. and big steve is less distant, but still distant. hes going to 42nd st with his mama. i feel some kinda way about that. we were supposed to go, but then his mother sd that she wanted to go as his christmas gift to her. we had a kiss...a nice moment, but nothing since then...weve been more supportive of each other, but we havent been alone...the baby refuses to go to sleep and were both so tired. im back on ww; determined to make a change and make it stick. when i get stressed i start eating alot and i start eating a lot of junk. i need to find a dif outlet.