well here i am up late again. i went to buy some contacts so i had to get a new prescription. ended up costing me 160 dollars...so pissed. the dr rx'ed some special lenses b/c i wear mine so much and wanted me to get some back up glasses. i was pissed enuf about spending that money, but i didnt have any lenses left and i have to be able to drive and other stuff i need to be able to c....i ve been with one lens for a while and with non for a day...so then steve has been with some broke up glasses for a while..hes been fixing them with gluem over and over...true. but come monday we would have insurance that would cover the expense...why couldnt he wait a couple days...he decides he shd get an exam too and his glasses cost 250...are u kidding...they say two pair for 70 on the commercial and a free exam...and then after all the add ons 250? why did he have to get them now? a few more days and it would have been covered. we still need to pay our mortgage...i know itll b ok..im just pissed.....almost 400 for some contacts and glasses....anyway im here again alone b/c he =d rather sleep on the couch then come sleep with me...i try not to think its personal,,,that hes just tired, but how can i not take it personal...night after night he wont come to ned....doesnt even try...i call, i got wake him and he wont come upstairs hed rather sleep on the couch...why lay there and set urself up to fall asllep there if u do not intend to sleep there? so im just mad and getting hurter and hurter. i feel rejected by my own husband but out of his mouth he keeps telling me that he is not rejecting me. nut that he can not talk to me...that i am dif to talk to. i told him i was looking for a job...i think it will serve as a good distraction for me if i can find something that ill really like, but i dont think it will help our relationship...i think that w will continue to grow further apart