i am considering stopping nursing. i am so tired of leaking all over..i feel like a cow. my husband doesnt seem to wanna touch me...i dont like my own self right now. i feel like my whole life is built around the children. and its a challenge to find time just for me. i feel like i have to steal it, b/c they are supposed to be my primary concern all the time...even when they sleep, they could wake up...and its hard to get lil steve to sleep...hes been staying up later and later...and he wakes up if u walk across the floor. this is npt the life i wanted for myself. i feel useless...alll ive been doing with my day is eat, sleep, go online, yake care of the children...som days i dont even bathe. i hate myself, i hate him, o hate my life.