i think i may b coming down from the "season" excitement. im so tired or maybe hermitlike. i dont wanna go out much...its cold...and ive mostly wanted to stay in the bed...dont wanna go downstairs...now mind u its cold down there too. we cant seem to keep the air out. and if we turn up the heat its a sauna on the second flr. steve was supposed to fill in the gaps, but nvr did. my children r down there b/c the tv has cable and they like to watch nick...so when zora comes upstairs her hands are like ice. its shdnt b that way...so i guess steve isnt gonna do it, so i better get whats needed and do it....its way too cold. lil steve and i have just been hangin in the bedroom. im ok, but kinda blah...i dont think i wanna go to church on new years eve. we have a service and then a festive ball and i dont feel like getting dressed up...i feel very unconnected with my husband right now...ive not been doing my devotions or reading my bible...i havent been eating right or exercising. i am blessed though...i know that...oh and ive stopped getting child support again. havent gotten any since november. guess isis' dad quit another job. my thing is he could at least have the decency to let me know. have some contact with his daughter..at least call her on christmas...his mom called, but not him...i pray that he is in the will of God .....i pray that he will be allright, whatever that is....i pray that isis will not be adversely effected by his absense; i pray thats steve is enuf of a daddy to satisfy her need..amen