merry christmas everyone. im feeling good. i put ok as my mood b/c i guess im kinda melancoly and not like happy. im very blessed though. i know that. i was feeling some anxiety b/c i spent more than i planned...not a hug amount, but more. so anyway a friend that doesnt even know me well tells me that she feels led to give our fam some money. and upon talking with her we realize we have a lot in common. im like a little afraid. i feel that ive lost a friend i used to confide in and now here's a new friend. whe did most of the talking...she needed to talk...seems she doesnt have a lot of friends herself. my christmas tree is beautiful. unfortunately i decorated it alone. steve was tired he works this morning at 4am and the children were getting on my nerves. i was trying to put up this train that runs around the tree...and i had to do that b4 the children cd start putting on the other ornaments...anyway so they start getting ansy and i send them to bed....it was already way past their bedtime. they fussed and cried...i think my 6 yo is too old to still b doing that...but they were both tired b/c they were out almost as soon as they hit the pillow. the living room is so cluttered...they got so much stuff from steve's fam plus the stuff we gave them...its just junky. i have a nordictrack that needs to go downstairs. and my new toolbox...and now a soccer goal that i got for the 2 yo...she got a soccer ball for her bday...ill prob set it up in the back patio so she can kick the ball around..im tired and sleepy so ill go to bed and let sugarplums dance in my head...haha