Update.

Mood is sinking faster than the Titanic. genuinely miserable. Thought long and hard about why, me and Sarah had an argument, first in an age.
Also the first time that our relationship does not rely on me fixing anything. This time it is her that needs to repair damage. If it wasn't for the fact that our relationship seems to be hanging in the balance, I'd quite enjoy this position of blamelesness.
 
As it stands, I am terrified it may be over soon. Just got to keep hoping.