tonight marks the 5 month anniversary of when my world was turned upside down, when I was forced from my fantasy life to face reality. My reality is what my H has been trying to hide from me all of these years. My reality is realizing that I wasn't respected enough to have the truth when I asked for it. My reality is that my life just isn't what I thought it was.
I hate the anniversary dates. Such a trigger for me. I haven't been able to sleep lately, literally, and I know tonight will be another long one.
Recovery is so long and hard for both of us. I just wonder when it will get better.
9 years of deceipt...takes equal time to earn back the trust