so, H had worked a lot of extra hours the other week. he said it was 70hrs total. Last week, it went back to normal, but I noticed old patterns coming about. I needed to talk to him about it, but was never able to. He knew I was becoming more and more upset, and would hear me crying in the wee morning hours. Still, he never confronted me about it, altho I tried.
There's been no communication with us last week. It seemed to be me talking to the wall again, as I've always done in this relationship. We've been spending less and less time together, and the time we do have, we don't talk. I tried, many days, many times. Last week he only asked me how what me and the kids did on monday and friday, altho i always ask him how his day was. Then, I have to run off to work as soon as he gets home, but I try to make the most out of those 10mins together.
we've always had a decent sex life, but we haven't done anything for 2 weeks now. not even snuggling. I have snuggled up to him while he's sleeping. I don't know if he's ever noticed.
Yesterday, we did spend the entire day together with the kids. Of course, because of the build up in me, at bedtime when the kids were asleep, I blew up.
the "why" questions from me....the blame and guilt I started to lay on him....Him crying, me yelling.
I just feel so lonely here at times. We have to work opposite shifts. I have thought about cutting out all the extra bills we can for me to stay home...but....really can't. Sucks