Now, that H has gone and had a cig, I can continue...I every hour find myself questioning why..what if...why...
How could I have left such a dysfunctional family, to live with a full blown SA, to marry a PA?? It HAS to be something within myself, however, I had NO idea H was like this. Yes, he had a high sex drive than from what I was accomptomed to, yet I loved it...but, that was it.
Then I find the images, the websites visited, the movies watched..and I wonder...why wasn't I good enough when I was willing? I was the one who incorportated the "kink" I used to always initiate sex between us before the first discov eryk.k..