Yes lest add to my codependency. I finally went on a date with my friend from prison. I was excited over NOTHING! Call me picky, but he's not as great as i thought he'd be. Plus one very small detail. That didnt even make up for his cockiness or assholeness. That's done and over with. Plus he wanted me to pay for everything. Nope not gonna happen again. I'm back into my "giving exes another chance" part of my life. This ex was my first love, first boyfriend. He has 2 children, was a gang member until i made him choose that lifestyle or to be with me. :) At first he chose the gang life. That was the end of that. The next day he called me and said he'd quit for me. So we're on again. He came out all the way from Northern Cali to come see me back in November. Things were better then when i was 17. Now its my "turn" to go see him. I'm reluctant to go out there. I dont know what lies ahead of me. I dont know what kind of drama is ahead. What i hate that Aaron does a lot is he'll be gone for days and not call. I used to worry myself sick thinking the worst. He had been hit in the head with a bat about 7 or 8 years ago. He was put in a coma for 14months. I worry about him. He has a big mouth and doesnt care about what he says. When it comes to me he's an Angel. In the past he never hit me or abused me in any way. So i am not worried about that. I just hate the fact of waiting for him til he damn well pleases. It's bullshit. I bitched him out about all this last week. It worked for a week thats about it. He needs to realize if he's ready to settle down or not or if he wants to keep running amuck like he's a teenager. This behavior of his is easily something i get fed up with. I'm tired of this i shouldnt have to worry about him. Thats when i should wipe my hands clean of all this mess. But i dont. I stay cuz i dont think anyone else wants me. I also dont really have a life. I stay at home like a hermit when i'm not at work. I used to go out but not really at all anymore. There was a time i was on a date with my prison friend and Aaron tried callin and calling me. I didnt answer. He finally got a taste of his own medicine. It didnt work really. I dont know what will. Thats why we get along so well. We're equally stubborn.
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Everything he\'s told me has been lies.... he wasnt hit in the head with a bat he was in a car accident running from the police in a stolen car. He\'s not Nicoya, he\'s not anything he says he is. He\'s not an angel whatsoever. I\'m done with him. I cant deal with him or his addictions. Ive been around an addict before which was family but they overcame the addiction and went to rehab. He\'s not even willing to do that. He\'ll never change.