well, first of all i've been seeing eli as much as i can in the past couple months. travelling 200 miles one way takes a lot on the pocketbook for gas. with my job write now i spend $300 every two weeks on gas alone! anyway, he got upset with me because i told him i need to save up my money for at least a month, so i wont be able to go out there. i knew this would upset him. anyway, after arguing with him and him trying to persuade me into coming by offering me more money, he just would NOT take no for an answer. so.... he was accusing me of cheating on him, and anything else he could think of to try and make me feel bad. this is what always happens. he just now left me a msg on my phone saying he "doesnt think it's going to work out". i really dont care, i do but i dont. i know his cycle will never change he's very controlling and demanding. i cant deal with it again. i need to be independent. if i cant love myself how i can i love someone else? i just need to get my mind straight. thats all i want.