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What a week...a week I'd like to forget...
Wednesday was the hardest...both a family member and a close friend passed away. One from a heart condition and the other from suicide.
One would think that my friend who committed suicide who shed some light into my life about how precious life is and how we shouldn't take it for granted. But it didn't. It just made me realize how simple it really is to end one's life. Especially if you feel stuck and like you have nothing going for you. Which is how I feel right now. I just need to get through the current sticky place because I know in two years when we start to plan a family I will want to be there. Just wish we could skip ahead.
The weather has been dreary, rainy, cold and very depressing as well this past week. It's really thrown my depression into full action. Yesterday I slept for about 16 hours and today 12 hours, yet all I want to do is go to sleep. I have no desire to do anything else, absolutely none. I just don't care.
I have less than two weeks of school left, yet I don't give a crap. I have to give a crap for one class because i'm on the verge of passing (passing is an 80%). I did poorly on my midterm because it was right before my wedding and I was so stressed and overwhelmed with things. And now, right before my final, my friend ends her life. I swear there is always something going on. Why can't there just be a break from craziness for once in my life.
Apparently that's never going to happen...it sure would be nice...
Wednesday was the hardest...both a family member and a close friend passed away. One from a heart condition and the other from suicide.
One would think that my friend who committed suicide who shed some light into my life about how precious life is and how we shouldn't take it for granted. But it didn't. It just made me realize how simple it really is to end one's life. Especially if you feel stuck and like you have nothing going for you. Which is how I feel right now. I just need to get through the current sticky place because I know in two years when we start to plan a family I will want to be there. Just wish we could skip ahead.
The weather has been dreary, rainy, cold and very depressing as well this past week. It's really thrown my depression into full action. Yesterday I slept for about 16 hours and today 12 hours, yet all I want to do is go to sleep. I have no desire to do anything else, absolutely none. I just don't care.
I have less than two weeks of school left, yet I don't give a crap. I have to give a crap for one class because i'm on the verge of passing (passing is an 80%). I did poorly on my midterm because it was right before my wedding and I was so stressed and overwhelmed with things. And now, right before my final, my friend ends her life. I swear there is always something going on. Why can't there just be a break from craziness for once in my life.
Apparently that's never going to happen...it sure would be nice...
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