struggling

struggling a lot.
having difficulty accepting the decision i made. i still feel sick to my stomach. the kids keep coming in my mind and i keep filling up with tears.
saw joanna which was really good and very much needed. 
what am i going to do with my life now? with all the extra time?
i just want to fucking runaway.
but i won't
i'll just keep pretending that life is great and continue to be the "positive" person I present myself to the world as.

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The decision you made is huge and it will hurt for a while. But you stood up for your values. But this wasn\'t your life, just a part of it, granted a big part but you have so much more going. How about no more pretending and be the real you no matter how people will take it.