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I don't care about myself anymore. All I care about is food obsessions and losing weight which I am clearly failing at.
I mean I know everything I need to do to get healthy, I just don't want to do it.
Talking to Jill, my dietitian today, I told her point blank what I was doing and how I just didn't care about myself and only wanted to lose weight. My mind is completely obsessed with food, cooking, calories, weight, etc. I also told her there is no point in going to her anymore since I'm not going to listen- the only reason is for her to weigh me so she and my therapist can have a consistent pattern. Coincidentally tonight she was moving her massive scale to the kitchen so that she did not have to do weights in her room and other people could use it. Meaning...she is probably going to contact Joanna so Joanna can weigh me super quick at our sessions. Blah.
Nobody is going to make me do or go anywhere. No one can make me go to a hospital again unless they literally drag me out of my apartment in a stretcher to the ER.
I mean I know everything I need to do to get healthy, I just don't want to do it.
Talking to Jill, my dietitian today, I told her point blank what I was doing and how I just didn't care about myself and only wanted to lose weight. My mind is completely obsessed with food, cooking, calories, weight, etc. I also told her there is no point in going to her anymore since I'm not going to listen- the only reason is for her to weigh me so she and my therapist can have a consistent pattern. Coincidentally tonight she was moving her massive scale to the kitchen so that she did not have to do weights in her room and other people could use it. Meaning...she is probably going to contact Joanna so Joanna can weigh me super quick at our sessions. Blah.
Nobody is going to make me do or go anywhere. No one can make me go to a hospital again unless they literally drag me out of my apartment in a stretcher to the ER.
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Well, if you don\'t want help and don\'t listen to any advice, you should quit getting help and wasting anybody\'s time. That\'s what my dietician told me. The same goes for therapy. It really makes me sad how hopeless you are and how nonexistent your wish for getting better is. I think you need to hit rock bottom which you definitely haven\'t . Because once you are there you will beg for someone to drag you to treatment.