Well its almosyt 3am & I just signed on here. Tryin to upload pictures but it won't let me..keeps sayin please select a valid avatar..who knows.. Just online right now learnin about this site and hoping to meet new people dealing with simular issues as me. I trying to figure on what the heck is wrong with me... I believe that I suffer from biopolar.. my moods are off the top..one min I am feelin really high and up like I'm on the top of the world..then within a sec/min I am down and feelin low like almost for no apparent reason or any little thing sets me into that state sometimes...or I get angry really easily and then when i get upsett i just wonder where its comin from. I get these racing thoughts daily and they just keeping adding up as the day goes on...then i get constante head pains from it .. to the point where i cant get anything done..i just wanna cry for hrs...get mad wanting to throw things around punch something out.. i just dont know how to deal with it anymore..talking about it right now is making me really angry because I am waitin waiting to see a psychitrist ...and its been months and months.. and i am not getting anywhere...I'm on celixa but to be honest i dont believe its helping one bit.. When I get really down ..like i am now i dont wanna see anybody or leave the house ..or deal with anyone or anything or i will explode.. sleeping for days i have been in bed for 2 days...cause I cant get myself out of it.. its like i need to do it ..in order for my brain to stop the racing thoughts ..nothing else helps. i cant focus I cant complete what I need to get done.