wtf :(

So i quit all of my meds more than 10 days ago i quit smoking 4 days ago i got court on monday for the child abuse trial .wooohooo {sarcastic}  im about to fucking lose my goddamn mind. i am secretly panicking inside.I am beyond fuckinbg depressed. Oh and my mom hates me. but yet wont stop calling me everyday and continues to talk shit about me behind my back.but yet loves me and misses me.WTF? I feel like i cant breathe anymore not litterally of course just emotionally. I just feel like curling up under my blanket and hiding from the world 4ever. Im sick of everything i dont even want to c anyone anymore. I want to just hide.I feel like im done.