wtf?

I woke up today in a fog,after having a very horrible dream,I dreamt ,that me and the monster were having sex and that i was enjoying it. I cannot believe I just wrote that,im so embarrassed and ashamed. what the fuck is wrong with me? Im sick.plain and simple.Ever since i started these new meds ive been having fucked up dreams,but this one is the worst and ive been angry at myself all day.i really dont know what to think.its got me so upset i want to cut ,i need to punish myself for dreaming that. idk.sorry for my rant, i hope i dont disgust anybody.