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So this has been a weird last few days,I dont know how to handle anything.I cant hurt myself and have no desire to. So im not numb haven't abused any pills either.i dont know what to do....im scared.My "high" so to speak has disappeared and i feel like im crashing without a safety net.I tried to talk to victor about my feelings last net and every time i tried to make out a sentence i got all chocked up. fuck i dont understand. Im afraid to cry because i might not stop.i dont know if i can do this,i miss being numb.