Things are still not going that well for me. I am waiting to hear back from my doctor. I am afraid of what she might said and do. One of the hard things is that her and my therapists are both 2 hours away so it is hard to get a quick appointment when I need it. I have to schedule them a few days in advance to make sure I can get up there and also to see if I have the money for gas.
I am struggling to just hang on. I am not suicidal but I am afraid that I will just completing blank. That I will not be able to function and that no matter goes on I will not be able do anything. And if things conitnue in the direction they are going I am going to hurt myself very seriously. Not that the cutting I do now is not serious but I will hurt myself more than alittle scar. My cutting is beginning to happen more offen. Every little things brings the urge on. I have tried many different things to try and distract myself but nothing is working. I want to stop but I can't. It is to hard.
I am struggling to just hang on. I am not suicidal but I am afraid that I will just completing blank. That I will not be able to function and that no matter goes on I will not be able do anything. And if things conitnue in the direction they are going I am going to hurt myself very seriously. Not that the cutting I do now is not serious but I will hurt myself more than alittle scar. My cutting is beginning to happen more offen. Every little things brings the urge on. I have tried many different things to try and distract myself but nothing is working. I want to stop but I can't. It is to hard.
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Hey, you\'re doing the right thing speaking with your doctor & therapist, let me know tomorrow how you get on with talking to them, & you know that you can message me if you need me. Big hugs xx
Hey Jen, I\'m going to believe w/all my heart that you will not give into these urges to hurt yourself. You wanted a friend. I am here. Please go to the hospital if you have to.