Things at home with my parents are alittle bit better, but I still feel so depressed.  All I want to do is stay in bed and do nothing, which is not happening, my parents are making me do things I don't want to do.  But I did finally tell them NO when they went shopping but on the downfall I have to watch my niece and nephew so no lying around for me.  This makes me feel even worse.
I am really thinking about call my doctor if things are any better by Tuesday and she what she has to say.  I know that going to the ER might help, there I will get help from people that specialize with this kind of thing.  But going will make matters even worse for me.  My parents don't understand what is going on, they think I should be better by now.  I can't talk with them about what is going on, so they don't know that my depression is getting worse. 
I am hating myself more and more each day, if that is possible.  I have no value, I don't deserve anything that I am getting or what I have.  I feel like I am lower than dirt and nothing matters in my life.  I do not matter. 



Any fool can criticize, condemn, and complain - and most fools do.
Dale Carnegie