I have so much self hatered toward myself that nothing matters to me. I am a worthless piece of garabage and no one should have to deal with me. It show I can't even find a relationship with another person. I am not worthy to even have a relationship. I have no hope for myself. I am going to be this way for ever and nothing is going to help me no hope at all.
I know that my family cares about me but I don't care about myself. Like I said I am hopeless and worthless. maybe that is why I cut and hit things because I don't care what happens to me.
I know that my family cares about me but I don't care about myself. Like I said I am hopeless and worthless. maybe that is why I cut and hit things because I don't care what happens to me.
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I wish I knew you better as then I could remind you of the things that make you a worthy and special person. Right now you don\'t have the ability to see the truth about yourself. Unless you are Jack the Ripper you have some good qualities. You will never rise out of the depression until you can stop hating you. You are not ready for a relationship right now because you are full of such self hatred but when you get some healing there is no reason why you couldn\'t find one. I have felt exactly as you are feeling and I know it is a pain which is beyond description. I am so happy that your family cares about you, not many people can say that on DS. I am a cutter myself and I am sure that it is a form of self hatred. Let those of us who care about you love you until you can love yourself. Do you have a therapist? I find those very helpful. You are in my prayers. Drop me a line anytime!