I have so much self hatered toward myself  that nothing matters to me.  I am a worthless piece of garabage and no one should have to deal with me.  It show I can't even find a relationship with another person.  I am not worthy to even have a relationship.  I have no hope for myself.  I am going to be this way for ever and nothing is going to help me no hope at all. 
I know that my family cares about me but I don't care about myself.  Like I said I am hopeless and worthless.  maybe that is why I cut and hit things because I don't care what happens to me.