I hate my life everything about it the way I look the way I talk just me as a whole everything I do is wrong I can't seem to think thing through I hate myself
sometimes I wish it were over, someone just smash my head in so I don't have to deal with anything anymore.  My life sucks, there is nothing to my life I can't get enough energy or will to want to get out of my house and do something plus I really have no friends to go do anything with.  I just want to sleep all the time.  Plus living at home with my parents doesn't make things any easier
I have thought about either stopping all my meds and just let happen that will happen or take to many of my meds and see what happens there.  Not like there are many people that will miss me
We went on vacation to the mountains in Tennesse and I had a great time, I did not feel any pain real I did not feel anything at all. But after Tennesse I went up to Indiana, up there I felt everything all the pain all the confusion I just felt everything that I feel when I am at home
Now that I am back I don't know what I am going to do I hate myself for being here